|Sunday, June 11th, 2006|
i came on here
and like every girl i used to talk too deleted their journals.
it kind of scares me.
ladies and gentleman.
it has been way to fucking long since i have written?
but i am thinner than ever right now.
they have that effect on me as well.
i need new friends since all of mine are gone.
sorry it has been so long.
add me guys!
|Tuesday, March 21st, 2006|
long time no see.
fuckin lif eis a joy.
and sometimes it kills me.
right now i am waiting tables.
making good money.
saving it all.
smoking a pack a day.
driving for hours.
living off cortislim and green tea pills.
a nalgene full of green tea.
and coffee on occasion.
i fly to cali tomorrow to see matt.
bathing sutis all week.
that is whats new.
sorry it has been so long.
cheers to the nicole richie book ...
"the truth about diamonds."
|Tuesday, January 24th, 2006|
goal weight= 130
i will stick to this plan starting tomorrow. every day i will eat NO MORE than 400 calories, and by the 14 ( the dreaded valentines day) ill be 130, where i was at the begining of this whole mess. since i have no boy that will ever like me no matter how hard i try , and in the end what i eat is my business not my friend's , this is my gift to myself. ive put up with too much bullshit this past month and the only times i was happy was when i was skinny.
i am fat
i am fat
i am fat
i cant see any bones anymore, not even my back. by hip bones dont stick out unless i flex my stomach and you can barely see the tentons on my hands and feet. i will post pictures once a week to show progress.
ANYONE WHO WANT TO JOIN ME ON THIS PLAN IS WELCOME, SINGLE AND ATTACHED ALIKE, YOU DESERVE SOMETHING MORE THAN CHOCOLATE ON VALENTINES DAY. YOU DESERVE TO BE 10 POUNDS THINNER!
|Tuesday, January 3rd, 2006|
"the walls are truly closing in"
Can't you hear me crying out
I'm going slowly crazy can't you hear my shouts
The voices they get louder everyday
Telling me I need to go even though I want to stay
This disease is killing me oh so slow
I try to stop but it won't let me go
I hate me, I love me, I hate me some more
This terrible secret is hidden in my core
There is no where to turn and no one to tell
This secret that I keep so well
Everyday is a battle I fight to the end
Anorexia has become my only friend.
|Friday, December 9th, 2005|
Goal Weight:100 (by my birthday 18/01/90)
Long term goal weight: 85 (by summer time 4 my holiday 2 cuba!)
E.D. type: ws mia now ana
hi, im new to this so i thought i shud tell u a little about myself. ive had a ed 4 bout a yr but i neva bin in hospital about it. i feel ova this past year i had changed a lot and grown up alot. over this past month so many things have happened to me and i feel i am stronger as a person thats why ive decided to turn ana b/c i feel the results are faster and it just proves to myself how strong i am.
i really like speaking to other people who r goin through the same thing as me because i cant speak to any1 where i am, every1 will just get angry @ me and i cnt deal with that @ the mo so thats why i just ave 2 wrk by myself and have support 4rm people on the net.
i am on a fast now it started on weds and ive lost 2 lbs already so it has really givin me more motivation!
anyway thx 4 listenin and i will try to post my proress every 2 days
|Friday, November 4th, 2005|
|Wednesday, October 5th, 2005|
So today my mom found that 30 of her metabolism pills were missing, 30 of which i ate, but ive been doing this for 6 months without her noticing, she accused me of taking them to make myself skinny, and i just said that they fell into the sink when i was looking at them out of curiosity. so she is allready suspisios, then she storms into my room because she found barf in the toilet( why she was looking, ill never know) . so then i told her that i was sick, and i was afraid to tel lher because she'd accuse me of making myself barf. well, she insisted that i was making myself barf ( which i am) and proceeded to weigh me. crap. because ive been telling her that im 135, but having her weigh me she found i was 128.you see ive been "home sick" with "food poisonin" which is basically m excuse for i took far too many laxatives. anyway. so hopefully she'll buy that that is the reason why ive been loosing weight, or something. god i pray. if she puts me into treatment ill kill myself.
today i found that i have a very big peice of fat on my back, that needs to be rid of, and i have no butt.
does anyone know a way that i can stay skinn with my mom monitering me , and a way to work out my back and butt??
|Friday, September 30th, 2005|
only 6 more pounds to go then i'll only have ten.
hey , im a newbie here , well, you know the name of the game...
E.D. type and how long for? ednos, for about 6 months, but ive hated the way i loook since i was about 10.
Have you been diagnosed/do you self-diagnose? self-diagnose
At least 1 photo of you:
this is me at 145:http://i3.photobucket.com/albums/y97/lancelotberry/doorway2.jpg
|Sunday, September 25th, 2005|
|Tuesday, September 20th, 2005|
hey everyone, my name is christine and i wanted to join this community because it seemed likea really awesaome place.
LJ Username: eatingcoulds01
Eating Disorder: bulimic with ana tendencies
Self-Diagnosed or Clinically: diagnosed
BMI: around 19
Highest Weight: 125
Lowest Weight: 99(oh those days)
Current Weight: 120 :(
LTG: as low as i can go
Tell us something interesting about yourself: non ed related: i am a dancer yay!
How long have you been struggling with your ED: i have been bulimic for about two years now, i was hospitalized this april when i actualy went into being anorexic with bulimic tendencies and got down to 98 pounds...i never really recovered but gained a lot of weight and now that i am in college i tnink it will be easier to hide it
Who is your biggest thinspiration: ahhh adriana lima, mary kate, and of course..GISELE!!!
What would you like to see from the community: lots and lots of support.
|Friday, September 16th, 2005|
i feel disgusting.
and this weight is
|Monday, September 12th, 2005|
bad days-first post
hey,i am new here,pro ana,33,2kids,just getting over a two day virus,some kind of stomach thing,it was horrible,but hey i lost 6 lbs!!! from 154 to 148!yay!i have lost 120 lbs in less than a year.still going-getting closer! Current Mood: crappy
|Thursday, September 1st, 2005|
Okay i'll admit that my eating problem (not eating) is probably my way of having some control in a life that i feel i have no control in. I'm so to the point of not caring anymore. People let u down that's what they do. Life lets you down and then shits on you, that what it does. Everyones trying to get over on everyone else and they dont care who they step on to get there. See just like i said there is no point. So let me fade away to skin and bones, so what if this ed is killing me, I dont care. Cause at this point everything in life seems very pointless to me. Whatever!
|Thursday, September 8th, 2005|
|Friday, August 26th, 2005|
|Monday, August 15th, 2005|
I need help. I can't seem to go on a fast because my mom always makes me eat. What should I do?
|Saturday, July 30th, 2005|
i think it is sad how people have to disrespect.
if you arent ana than no need to be in here.
you obviously have nothing better to do with your time.
youknow nothing about me and any of the girls in here obviously.
ana has given me more confidence in myself than i could ever imagine.
if you dont understand the disease than fuck off.
i dont know need you commenting on something you know nothing about.
you make yourself look like an idiot.
as for the rest of you ladies. thanks for the support.
and stay beautiful and keep working at it.
i believein every one of you lovelies.
|Thursday, July 28th, 2005|
umm hello loves
okay so marta waydel is my ultimate thinspiration. she has the most amazing body. ahhhh. i love her.
thank you darlings for so much support. i am getting thinner than ever. i cant wait until my boyfrined is gone to college and i have my life finally to myself. no more worrying about having to pretend to eat. this year is going to be the best. i can feel it. ahhhh.
omg and if you have not checked out nicole richie please get the latest star magazine. she looks amazing. i love her collar bones.
ps. sorry it has been so long!!!
if anyone ever wants to talk im me!
aim: O i AdoreYou